Love That Was Lost

I fell in love before and I should say it was a feeling of ecstasy; a feeling anyone could desire for. It was an unexplained emotion - full of love, anger, misanthropy, jealousy, devotion and longing. No one assured that love would always be pleasurable and satisfying; not even when you're with the person you've dreamed spending the rest of your life with. There are no certainties - in between are the options and choices. It is when one learns that "Destiny" in its contextual form is the circumstances that befall someone or something.

I have learned to love...a love that was lost eventually. The "What If's" I had before have their answers now. They have crushed every bit of you, as if not wanting to experience the longing of how to love and be loved again. It was not supposed to be that way, never how I wanted it to be..... But maybe it was destiny.

Amidst of "everything" that had happened, there was still a feeling of confusion - whether to let go or hold back. It's hard to let go when you know that you love the person so much that you just can't imagine living a life without him. But wouldn't be harder to hold back when all the love that you have from the start are slowly fading away? The person that you are, who do not believe in destiny slowly realizes that there are certain things that are really bound to happen and you don't have any control of, no matter what you do.

The love that you nourish from the start is all coming to an end. Things are not getting better and it seems that nothing is right anymore. You began to anticipate and at the same time wish that you can still escape not just the thoughts that are within you, more so the feelings that you have right now that you've been nurturing the first time you laid your eyes on him. Now, it's all fading....you only wish you can turn back the time ...the way you wanted it to be...the way it should have been......

"If there's just one piece of advice i can give you, it's this - when there's something you really want, fight for it, don't give up no matter how hopeless it seems. And when you've lost hope, ask yourself if 10 years from now, you're gonna wish you gave it just one more shot. because the best things in life, they don't come free." - Meredith Grey